I'm Gill and I am 2 years sober. I spent 5 years desperately trying to learn how to moderate my drinking, but eventually my self-hatred evolved into suicidal thoughts and those thoughts were so scary that I accepted I am not someone who can ever drink. Now, I host a podcast about addiction science called Sober Powered where I explain why some of us develop a problem and others don't, and why it's so hard to stop drinking. Getting sober has set me free and allowed me to finally start living and enjoying life. I hope you can find the same peace if you haven't found it yet.